You know so many things have happened since I last wrote. I have done many things that I regret and wish that I have a time machine to go back and make changes. However that is not possible, so matter how much I wish it to be so. I got married on December 12, 2005. I just recently told my parents. I understand their anger with me, as well as their hate. I wish in many ways that I could go back and changed the decision I made to get married so that they would not hate me so much. My husband is a good man who loves me and does so many things to make me smile. In fact when I am with him, my laughter and smiles are actually sincere (or however you spell it). I don't have to put on an act to make others think that I am happy. I do miss my sister and my nephews and hope that one day they will be able to except me and my husband into their lives. All i can do right now is continue to work towards drawing close to god and encourage and help my husband to do the same. As he has reminded me that a marriage with god in it will last. Anyway......i really don't have anything more to say at this point...but I love all of you and miss you all so much...